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Friday, 17 September 2021

Surrender Your Control to Jesus' Will

Twenty-fifth Sunday in
Ordinary Time
19 September 2021 
 
First Reading: WIS 2:12, 17-20
Responsorial Psalm: PS 54:3-4, 5, 6 and 8
Second Reading: JAS 3:16-4:3
Gospel: MK 9:30-37
 
Reflection
By: Theresa Ballo
 
Imagine that you are one with the disciples following Jesus and you hear from Him how He would suffer yet you see calmness as he laid out all the negative things that will happen to Him in this journey, wouldn't we be exactly like the disciples questioning a lot of things? In your heart, there's a belief that you are actually following a man who performed wondrous miracles. Will you express your doubts? I felt the hesitations from these disciples in controlling themselves to ask questions to Jesus. They cannot understand why the Son of God, all powerful that He is, would accept suffering and even death on the cross.

Maybe just like the disciples, we also fail to really listen to Jesus. We only focus ourselves on suffering and death where in fact He also speaks about His resurrection. Sometimes we think that asking questions would make us stupid and uninformed. We are too proud of ourselves to acknowledge vulnerability. We seek answers but are reluctant to do things that will give clarity to our confusion by simply asking a question.

The good news we have today is that in many moments of our lives, we are like the child Jesus carried. Most of the time, we do not understand or do not know many things happening around us. Jesus holding a child, the ultimate symbol of not knowing, not understanding, immature and underdeveloped but one who would completely trust and believe his caregiver. And that I think is the invitation, no matter how big or small our questions in this life. It is only in the eyes of a child that we see wonder. It is only through wonder that we can feel the glory and greatness of the Father. We need not to fear because we are in the presence of our Savior. A quote would say, "perfect love casts out all fear."

Forget our selfish ego. Forget pride. Forget being in control. Arise each day. If some things in your life are difficult, just breathe. Breathe in the Holy Spirit's air that someone is taking care of you. Be aware of the many you can be thankful for in the day, but ultimately leave it to God to make it happen. This spiritual struggle of being in control and letting go is a tug-of-war with our own ego. All our stories are coming true, and that for me is the Good News. I once told my mentees, do not get distracted by focusing on getting it right all the time. Step back, come back and continue your journey, your story. Be humble. Allow Jesus to come into our lives. Continue self-emptying, by giving to others, so later on, God can fill us up with His glory and power. Are you ready to humble yourself and serve as Jesus did?

Prayer
 
Lord Jesus, by Your cross You have revealed Your glory and triumph over the sin and death. May I never fail to see Your glory and victory in the cross. Help me to lessen my need for control and surrender my life to Your will so I can follow in Your way of holiness. Amen.

 

Thursday, 9 September 2021

CoVid Takes, Jesus Saves!

Twenty-fourth Sunday in
Ordinary Time
12 September 2021 
 
First Reading: IS 50:5-9a
Responsorial Psalm: PS 116:1-2, 3-4, 5-6, 8-9
Second Reading: JAS 2:14-18
Gospel: MK 8:27-35
 
Reflection
By: Theresa Ballo
 
Who do people say that I am? We have been hearing this question probably once a year in the Gospel, and each year we may have different responses. In this pandemic, I was just wondering who people say Jesus is.

For the past two months, I lost two uncles and two aunts. All three siblings of my mother and her sister in law. Only my aunt, mom's only sister died of complications due to CoVid-19. She fought severe CoVid for more than a month in the hospital. Her hospital bills went to 3.2 milion where none of us have millions in the bank. And she's the last among them who died. Our house was just next to her house. So when five of them tested positive for CoVid-19, we were also positive. Three in our household, both of my parents and I. We all recovered from CoVid-19 except her.

For the past three years, I was living away from my parents. I see them twice or thrice a month. I went back here to Bulacan from Laguna to attend my uncle's funeral who died of a liver problem. Little did I know that three more deaths would follow. When we were all symptomatic, I was really worried about my parents' lives. I would wake up in the middle of the night just to check if there were still breathing. I prayed not for my healing but theirs. I have mental health problems, so dying is something I would take pleasure from. Just the thought of ending life's miseries and hopefully being with our Creator is something I really look forward to. So I asked for God's mercy and healing for my parents' and one special night I asked Jesus to heal me because no one will take care of my parents if I go ahead of them. The anxiety, the fear, the loss CoVid-19 brings to a number of families is real. No one wants that. Nobody wants to spend their last days physically alone, around strangers. It's something you wouldn't want to wish for anyone, not even for your enemy.

Jesus remains to be my healer and savior. In Him, I find rest. Truly, as we read the Psalms this Sunday, He has freed my soul from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling. I shall walk in the land of the living. Grief takes many aftershocks and having that number of deaths in the family in a matter of two months brings desolation, differences, and drought in Spirit. Maybe this is where Jesus' invitation comes in. To take up His cross and still follow Him.

But Jesus is God. Yes, He may share with us human experiences but definitely He is a way more stronger than we are. I can just recall how much He suffered on His way to the cross. Accepting that death in itself is a part of life makes coping a bit easier. When I see my aunt suffer in the hospital, procedure after procedure. She cannot talk. She cannot say where it hurts. We all surrendered to God's ways because we are hurting seeing her suffer, not being able to do anything to alleviate her pain. Believing in God's mercy and Jesus' promise of afterlife, makes letting go easier.

Jesus teaches us that if we want to save our lives, we must deny ourselves, pick up our cross and follow Him. What attachments do we hold dearly that hinders us from having a deep and loving relationship with Him? Are we obsessed with life that we take for granted to actually live? How do we respond to detachments and losses in life?

Listen to Jesus. What is He telling you today?
 
Prayer
 
Lord Jesus, make my heart the same as Yours. Help me to value events, people, and things the way You do. Teach me to follow You especially when it entails making a personal sacrifice and discomfort for me. Give me grace to see You in all things, the courage to say yes and continue, and the strength to carry my cross. Amen.

 

Saturday, 3 September 2016

Footsteps

       Twenty-Fifth Sunday of 
              Ordinary Time
            September 4, 2016
First Reading:  Wisdom 9:13-18

Great crowds accompanied him on his way and he turned and spoke to them. 'Anyone who comes to me without hating father, mother, wife, children, brothers, sisters, yes and his own life too, cannot be my disciple. No one who does not carry his cross and come after me can be my disciple. 'And indeed, which of you here, intending to build a tower, would not first sit down and work out the cost to see if he had enough to complete it?

Otherwise, if he laid the foundation and then found himself unable to finish the work, anyone who saw it would start making fun of him and saying, "Here is someone who started to build and was unable to finish." Or again, what king marching to war against another king would not first sit down and consider whether with ten thousand men he could stand up to the other who was advancing against him with twenty thousand?  If not, then while the other king was still a long way off, he would send envoys to sue for peace. So in the same way, none of you can be my disciple without giving up all that he owns.

Responsorial Psalm: Psalms 90:3-4, 5-6, 12-13, 14-17

Second Reading: Philemon 1:9-10, 12-17

I am rather appealing to your love, being what I am, Paul, an old man, and now also a prisoner of Christ Jesus. I am appealing to you for a child of mine, whose father I became while wearing these chains: I mean Onesimus. I am sending him back to you -- that is to say, sending you my own heart.

I should have liked to keep him with me; he could have been a substitute for you, to help me while I am in the chains that the gospel has brought me. However, I did not want to do anything without your consent; it would have been forcing your act of kindness, which should be spontaneous. I suppose you have been deprived of Onesimus for a time, merely so that you could have him back for ever, no longer as a slave, but something much better than a slave, a dear brother; especially dear to me, but how much more to you, both on the natural plane and in the Lord. So if you grant me any fellowship with yourself, welcome him as you would me;

Gospel:  Luke 14:25-33

Great crowds accompanied him on his way and he turned and spoke to them. 'Anyone who comes to me without hating father, mother, wife, children, brothers, sisters, yes and his own life too, cannot be my disciple. No one who does not carry his cross and come after me can be my disciple. 'And indeed, which of you here, intending to build a tower, would not first sit down and work out the cost to see if he had enough to complete it?

Otherwise, if he laid the foundation and then found himself unable to finish the work, anyone who saw it would start making fun of him and saying, "Here is someone who started to build and was unable to finish."  Or again, what king marching to war against another king would not first sit down and consider whether with ten thousand men he could stand up to the other who was advancing against him with twenty thousand? If not, then while the other king was still a long way off, he would send envoys to sue for peace. So in the same way, none of you can be my disciple without giving up all that he owns.

Reflection 
by Theresa Ballo

Today’s Gospel passage speaks about the demands of discipleship. It speaks about a complete surrender and giving of oneself which is necessary to become Jesus’ true disciple. Acceptance of the call requires readiness to bear suffering and a realistic assessment of the costs. This includes detachment from family, possessions or even one’s comfort zone. To accept Christ is to accept His cross as well.

In the midst of the many voices clamouring for our time, money and attention, we are called to choose Christ and in so doing we could get hurt, rejected and abandoned. Choosing Jesus does not mean a perfect and easy life. Every choice we make automatically exclude other choices. You have to let go of one in order to gain something. Yet it does not necessarily mean that you made the best choice. This is a challenge for each of us, especially in our day. We so often define choice not as a freedom to choose one action over another, but as the freedom to choose everything at once.

“One mission is better than a thousand options” Cardinal George Pell once said. Only commitments bring fulfilment. Happiness comes from doing our obligations, where we are right now, doing our duty especially the small matters done consistently. Discipleship may cost us everything, yet it will gain for us all that will ever matter.

I am of one of the hundreds of people claiming as “wounded-healers”. The kind of people who experience traumatic experiences or abuse during childhood yet grew up to help people deal with it and manage it as it resurface through stages of life. At first, I was very hesitant and afraid to answer His call. Nevertheless with prayers, self-assessment and with the help of my mentors I know Jesus is calling me for this mission. However, the past months were quite a challenge. I cannot finish something I’ve been doing for years that would set my credibility in my profession. More so, I felt responsible for something that somehow shows my negligence or worse, lack of skills. Right now, I am doubtful of myself and want to try other options. Am I telling Jesus because I am having a hard time, I am giving up my commitment with you?

Oftentimes I would hear Him saying, “Think about what you are doing and decide if you are willing to stay with me all the way.” And in my imagination I would see His Sacred Heart, so loving and compassionate. Then I would be reminded about the lost and sinful women in the Bible, the fishermen in Galilee and even the tax collectors. To be called does not require perfection on our behalf, only fidelity and humility. The Gospel reminded us our call to greatness. The path may not seem straight but if we choose to have Jesus in our lives and be his disciple, we will all see one another in the same destination, to God’s Kingdom.

Prayer

Lord,
Send us your Holy Spirit to always discern ourselves and Your will when making any decision, especially the life-changing ones. May we always choose you and follow your footsteps. Give us the courage to stay with you even if it is hard , even if it pains us. It is your unconditional love that gives us strength to love even more. Amen.

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